....After leaving our home due to Life threatening situations. We moved with his father until we found another home. I came home oneday from work & something seemed strange. I saw something in his eyes that didnt sit right. I felt a vibe that I cant describe. Thats how I knew something was about to happen.
THE HURRICANE HIT.........Petty arguments. He used to break down & cry, chase me, grab my bags wheneva I packed them. But everything changed. He said it was because he was being a better him. Code word for "Bitch I'm cheating" When those tears start flowing, & every things different & u feel the pain coming. THATS HOW YOU KNOW ITS COMING. Baby I'm not surprised. You did exactly what i thought you would. As much as Im used to it. That shit hurts each time Im not gone even lie. My heart shattered. & I'm stuck with resentment. I gotta find away to piece my shit back together. Lol damn, can i borrow some of your "Super Glue" because it looks like u covered your heart in it before ever being broken, so u could never experience the hurt that u cause. Tuh, it shows. If u knew how it felt, I doubt if u'd do it to another. But u know how dem niggas be. #careless, #heartless, #selfish Well some men, NOT all
FORGIVE/FORGET....I use to love u so easily, wake up filled with Life. After mistakes u made, I took u back with an understanding that u would change, & I should trust u. But bae, i did. I gave u my all, sacrificed everything for u. My life included u, like really included u. I thought that If I could jst get over what u took me thru, & force myself to forgive u. then we would be ok. But I fought this battle along with no1 to defend me. When I was up against challenges..I turned around & u weren't there. It felt like I was fighting for us..but u were fighting for them. I felt 2nd, even tho I was 1st runner up. You lied once again. You say I argued constantly, its because I knew what u were doing when my eyes were closed. I had proof, but I loved u too much to leave.Bae, I just cant get over how u hurt me. I taught u the true meaning of female love..& u gave yourself to another girl who cared about u not. They see you as the popular guy, I saw u as my Life. They wanted to be in your spot light. I just wanted to make sure u shined. We tried to rekindle our love. But it wasnt the same. It was time to let go. I kept packing my bags, u kept fallin to your knees crying. I kept leaving, but u kept callin me back. I feel like If I cause a man to cry, why would I leave without drying his tears & comforting his soul? I needed u to love me bae, I wanted u to protect me pooh, u made me feel like I wasnt good enough. But I did it all, everything in my power to make u happy. I even gave u the best part of me. Im doing the best that I can..but I..I cant do it. On the outside I was quite, I was silent, but a single tear ran down my face. Bae I was screaming loudly inside. Bae I needed u the most. So why hurt me? I been here for 2 years. I took care of u when them niggas gunned u down, I was there when that bitch took u thru hell about your daughter. I even beat her ass for u bae. I wish u told me u wasn't happy. What did u do to me? Why the fuck am I still crying? Im soft as hell, I used to be so strong. Why did u lie? I didn't deserve to be treated this way. Them bitches wasn't even worth it. You're now stuck in jail with a fucking colostomy bag, & their not even concerned about u.
ALL I COULD DO WAS CRY.. When he got shot, I stayed in the hospital with him for 2weeks. I was dropped from school due to missed days. My job cut back on my hours and later fired me because they felt my performance wasnt up to part anymore due to tiredness of taking care of him. My car would later be taken due to a promise his mother made to pay a loan off if I took it out to help pay her rent....When I saw his new bitch visiting him in jail. i felt anger because looked what all I sacrificed. Yea, it was my decision but fuck your opinion. I love hard. I saw my love, staring into another woman's eyes. Every moment was a pain in my soul. I pray he never used our words "Til, death due us part"...Ohhhh my Godddd, all I could do was cry. Inside I had already snapped her neck in 1/2 & stuffed it down his throat. But on the outside, I smiled. Their life of pain had just begun, & mines was ending...
YOU MUST DONT KNOW, WHO RAISED ME?.....I met some1 better, so fuck ya. So let me pack my shit, oh and can u pass me my heart back? Imma be needing that. You though that I wouldnt survive if I left< Tuh, don't get to comfortable with that thought. I heard the hurricane hit u, U fallin off and dat bitch aint no where to be found. I remember u yelled "I don't need u, LEAVE!!!" Whoa lil nigga really? But look who u got your fam callin to come visit u? Um, well since I'm not your everything anymore, I wont shed any more tears. Imma sleep well. Lol j/k yea imma come visit u. But the feelings I had for u are gone. But I love u *mwah
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